Boldness Be My Friend. (Gabriel)(Mature)

[Olivia Green]

It had been a few days since the funeral of her sister. Olivia had not yet left the house since. The sun was no longer brighter as her other half ceased. The curtains were drawn closed as she sat on the comfort of Alexis' couch. Only time she left that spot was to go to the bathroom, but that came rare for she had not yet eaten a bite. Green eyes grow exhausted, but cannot close for fear another bad dream of her sister's death awaken.

It was an open casket. Olivia would rather not see her that way, but the way she was before. Though looking at Lexie bathe in the sorrow of everyone around her, Olivia couldn't help but notice a calm and peaceful sleep she had fallen under. Alexis hadn't had the time to say goodbye to anyone... Maybe Li.. but that was all. Olivia would give anything to say goodbye to her.. to say goodnight and I love you. All she could really do was leanr from Alexis' mistakes.. she had to let people know..

She reached for the phone that had been sitting on the side table and with little hesitation, she dialed his number.

He wanted nothing to do with her, he made it perfectly clear.. but she still wanted something to do with him. After all.. he was the first person that wasn't her sister that she could trust. He was the only one she could trust.. though he had broken that with harsh words of hatred that burned deep for her.

Livi waited for him to pick up and if he did.. she would ask in a calm hurtful voice. "Can you come over?" he was the only one she really knew; so, she needed his company. Not only that, but she wanted to let him know.. despite his feelings towards her.

[Gabriel Seran]

Gabriel sat around his house staring boldly into a mirror, his features taking on a darker glow than usual. What was his usual? He had just wakened from a short period where he'd had an absent slip of his memory. Even now the images still dwindled in carefully. Little pockets of information that held special purpose and reasoning as he fit them in one after the other. Names, places, everything he'd aquired gave him a bit of a throbbing skull.

Gabriel stood to retreat to his bed room with finess, his reflection was irritating him. Always having to be reminded of the things he'd nearly been willing to do. And all to no avail, what mattered now was lost beneath a veil of failure.

*Ring*

The shrill sound of his phone shuddered against the bedspread. Eyes narrowed as he slid over to grasp it at it's end. And a familiar voice filled the other end with a certain melody, though not one of happiness but one of sorrow.

"It's alright... I'll be right over." Gabriel could hear the tension in her voice. The pain, it must have taken her alot to call him. As much as it did to reject her...

A few minutes latter Gabriel drove up on the same motercycle he'd driven to meet her the first time. A calm facade veiling his thoughts even his very emotions but deep down he despised bhimself. He could make things right. Gabriel would set aside the past for her and take the rendemption from his peers he could take their beatings till his memory faded away. If only for her...

By the time he'd gotten to the door Gabriel's heart thudded irregularly in his chest aching to escape the bars caging them in. A soft knock hit the door as Gabriel leaned there in the doorway, so much like their very first time there.

[Olivia Green]

Olivia was some what releaved when he had accepted her invitation, but something else stirred inside her stomach. She feared he might come up with more harsh things to say to her or worse. Olivia sat herself back down in the same place she never left. It was a good thing she had a shower this morning. She couldn't stand being dirty and out of order, so she managed enough energy to clean herself. All in all it was good, 'cause Gabriel hadn't wanted her; so, if he came here and she smelle that would be worse...

She heard the roar of an engine come to a stop in her drive way. It sounded like a motorbike.. a lot like the one he had driven on his last visit.. the one where he spent the night. She didn't know if she culd trust him enough to have him spend the night again, but she didn't know if this would be their last meeting.

There was a gentle tap on the door, one that played off tune from her own heart beating. Her palms got sweaty along with the quickening of her breath. She was having second thoughts of inviting him over. She took a puff from her inhaler and stood up from the couch. Livi didn't want to get up, but she thought that yelling for him to enter would shatter the calm silence she had had for a few days.

She opened the door to find Gabriel waiting. He was carrying himself slightly different than the last time they had met, but he still had his glow, the one that made him tick. He was just as handesome as ever. She didn't come in contact with him because she still had some form of trust issues after the day at the pool.. even after the death of her sister.

"Hi hi hi..You can come in.." she walked over to her couch, and sat herself once again. She didn't offer him a seat, assuming he would find himself a spot where he found fit. After all, Olivia wasn't expecting him to sit down beside her. "Um...uh.." she didn't really know where to start, after all, she couldn't think of the exact reason why she even called him. Yeah there was the stem of it all, but that was far too harsh to bring up. "Some things had come up..." her eyes fell to the crop circles engraved in the carpet and her hand reached up, under her hair, behind her head. A little nervous mannerism she could not sustain. "Alexis had been killed.." she tried her hardest not to cry infront of him.. after all he got rid of her for basically being a pathetic rag doll. "I just..I just needed company..." amongst other reasons for calling him there...

[Gabriel Seran]

He waited in the doorway for a short while. His thoughts drifting to whether or not he should have actually been there. She would be better off without him in her life. She'd be safe. Thats what he told himself before but now it seemed as though everything was falling to shreads and the one thing that had always been with him was Olivia. Guilt seethed in his chest as he remembered how harsh he'd been with her, she hadn't deserved that punishment she was so frail.

The door opened and Gabriel's eyes reacted with sudden vigil taking and feasting upon her image almost at once. It'd been a while things had past far strung from the moment when they'd last spoke her voice was like a remedy to his qualms as her strange manner of speech went unanswered. His form followed her in gently with a certain hesitation to it uncertain whether he should make himself feel at home, he hadn't earned it he needed her trust right now more than anything if he could somehow fit the pieces together perhaps he could live happily.

"Some things had come up..." her eyes fell to the floor and her hand reached up, under her hair, behind her head.

Gabriel's stern suspicien grew as he tried to retain some eye contact with her once again. Had he done something he didn't intend to? Was she seeing someone else?

"Alexis has been killed.." Her voice sounded cold almost as if she hadn't recognized it herself. Gabriel shuddered.

Had this been how he sounded to her when he left her there in front of Reira? Had he brought this kind of pain onto her? His heart wrenched as he moved closer never sitting but coming close before her head.

"I just..I just needed company..."

Gabriel fell to his knees as if he'd been hit with a ten ton weight falling right before her as his hands moved slowly to cup her chin in a concerned embrace pulling her eyes up to meet his. He didn't know what to say... what was there to say? The pain she must be feeling and he was partially to blame for that, he deserved to suffer the pain she was suffering she did not deserve it.

"I... I'm sorry Olivia," Gabriel started slowly his voice losing it's sense of control, "I'm so sorry for what I've caused you... If I could take it back I would live a life with you where you'd never feel that kind of pain ever..." Gabriel's eyes grew teary but he resisted to show the way he felt fully.

[Olivia Green]

He kept his distance, which she had suspected, but once she let the news flow out like a deadly plague he gained closeness. She felt his hand cup her chin. Something she wouldn't had allowed if it were anyone but him. Livi still felt uneasy for him to gain that much physical connection with her so soon, but she would let it slide. She missed being with him.

He then apologized for what he had done to her. Livi's eyes matched his and they searched for the truth. She couldn't read him anymore. Once decieved the way she had been mixed up her senses about Gabriel. He probably ment the apology, due to the fact she was speaking of the death of her sister.. rather than the words he spoke to her that unfaitful day.

"I'm sorry I was acting pathetic." she knew damn well how she was pathetic, but she just couldn't break from her shell.. she was close now and awhile back, eversince she met Gabriel. He worked on prying open the case that trapped her all her life, and for that she was thankful, and for that he deserved her love. "I'm sorry for making you doubt me..I want to try really...I want to make it up to you... Maybe even have a proper goodbye..."

Without further word she would lean in and boldly kiss him on the lips. It would hurt if he would pull himself away, more than ever. She didn't know why she was gambling her feelings at a moment like this. Olivia was too Fragile. Well, she had to take the leap, after all, how long did she have left?

[Gabriel Seran]

"I'm sorry I was acting pathetic."

Gabriel's eyes traced her with an odd yearning. This was all his fault, there was no way around it and still she blamed herself. He had found some humor in that how stupid she was being and how she was beating him back now making him feel worse.

"Don't say..." He started but was cut off as she continued on boldly.

"I'm sorry for making you doubt me..I want to try really...I want to make it up to you... Maybe even have a proper goodbye..."

Proper goodbye? what had she meant bye that? He wasn't leaving her, even if she forced him out now he'd be here for her. Olivia needed someone to hold onto now that her sister had died. And Gabriel was stunned, stunned at the fact that she was still so captivating to him consuming all his thoughts now, how he was so willing to give up his ambitions solely for her.

She lened forward and kissed him. Gabriel pressed forward without hesitating to kiss her back. It felt too natural, to much of an instinct that he couldn't control it. Almost like breathing. His hand moved behing to cradle her neck softly as he pulled free for just a moment.

"You have no reason to be sorry..." Gabriel said with a smile his lips centimeters away from hers almost teasing, "I was the one who was pathetic, who disappointed you..." He pulled her in again to kiss with more passion than he'd given anyone.

[Olivia Green]

She only slightly gave him recognition for the apology he spoke. He had his hand to her neck and he pulled closely to her and she just wanted to keep kissing him. When he was only centimeters away from her lips to say his sorry, he still wasn't close enough. Whether he wanted to stay by her side for as long as he lived, she couldn't be with him. She had to leave him behind, no matter how much love she had for him.

But at the moment, she had him back and she was going to take advantage of it.

She was in dire need for his attention. All her life she lacked it and now she wanted it more than ever. Alexis was out of her life.. everyone was gone.. Gabriel was all she had left so she needed to suck all the attention out from him as much as she could. Olivia laid back, now against the back rest of the couch, but tugged on his collar to draw him near. He would now be leaning over her and her legs would be spread for him to come closer as her lips greedily took in his.

She didn't want to stop. The first time she came close to this, there was something itching in her for her to stop what she was doing. Alexis had even come into the room and interrupted it, as if it was ment to happen, but now there were no more interruptions. She wanted him badly, and she didn't want to stop. The only way she was going to let go of him was if he pulled clear from her.

Her right hand slipped up to his left hip and she directed him closer, so there would be more of their body in contact with each other.

[Gabriel Seran]

No hesitation now as Olivia led him on, there was something wrong he could sense it but he was too selfish at this point too consumed in his need for her. A throbbing in his skull it was the sensation of being with her, this close too. She didn't waste time to bring them even closer as Olvia directed his body to mend to hers. A perfect fit. He pressed her lips more hungerly now unable to forece them away.

He wouldn't hurt her again. Olivia needed him. His subconcious played tricks with his mind telling him to leave his worries behind to just enjoy being with her. He tensed up as his hands drifted to her hips lifting the small woman into his arms looping her legs about his waist as he'd carry her off to her room. His mind was only focused on one thing now and that was Olivia, he truly cared for her and he would do this to please her solely.

[Olivia Green]

He didn't pull away from her. He just kept getting closer and closer and that was a good sign. He wasn't going to leave her. Of course that only made her feel guilty for what she will be doing in the future. He grabbed her thighs and she wrapped them around his waist as he picked her up. She was very light, especially to him. He brought her to her room with no problems and laid her on her bed.

It was a little drafty in the room, due to the fact she hadn't slept in it for a few days. She wiggled herself further on the bed, then wrapped her arms around his neck, bringing him onto the bed with her accompanied by a kiss. Her fingers searched for her PJ buttons and she began to undo them with shakey movement. She didn't want to stop, but this still scared her. it was a new experience for the naive girl.

She was very self conscious about letting him see her naked body. What if he didn't like it or something... but she just kept going, she wasn't going to pause to find out. Now shirtless she kept kissing him.

Her lips parted from hers as she heard her breath pant. In a mere whisper she would ask him "..Be gentle..." she was a fragile girl and this scared the shit out of her, but her yearning for him grew pssionatily and crushed the fear.

[Gabriel Seran]

He lowered her to the bed gently as Olivia took it upon herself to get more comfortable. His breathing rate increased drastically and same with his heart. Lips pressed against her gentle frame soothing her warm skin. He was anxious as she was, or was it fear. Fear that he'd end up hurting her agin. Causing harm unto her once more Gabriel wouldn't be able to live. Though he didn't stop he pressed in close kissing her again.

"..Be gentle..."

He looked her in the eye with a short pause and calmly brushed her ear. "I will never hurt you, not again." He whispered quietly.


*Time Skips time?*

Dawn peaked gently over the horizen as streaks of light made their way excitedly through the window. The rays of light dance methodically against their matched skin. Gabriel slept soundly, comfortably, and for once in a blue moon he was indeed happy. He couldn't believe how things could have turned out any other way. But he was glad they where as they were now. Arms laced around her body gently. Cradling her utmost care. Blissfully unaware of the future.

[Olivia Green]

He agreed to be kind and they had a night of bliss. She woke up early from a nightmare. Sweat glissened on her skin and Gabriel's arms were still protectively wrapped around her. Gentley, she pulled from his grasp and slid off the bed. She stared down at his body that laid in a peaceful slumber. A weak smile spread across her lips and she kissed him on the forehead.

she slid on a silk night gown that was in her closet and tip toed out of the room. She went into the room where Alexis had kept all her instruments stored. She remembered hearing Alexis in the middle of the night, playing something on her grande piano. The sun shown across it as if it's ghost called her near.

There was a green CD case on the top of the piano.

Livi drew near and picked up the smalled plastic case and read the neat penmenship that was strewn across its surface.

There Livi. you are allowed to listen to this one

Alexis made her a CD... She stuck it into the player and isntantly recognized the melody. She was thinking of Olivia while making it... it was something to play along to, one of her favorites...

Olivia stepped over to the stand that held her Violin and she began recording over the track Alexis had on the computer and she readied a new disc in the drive. Once everything was in order, she would play this song with no dely. It was Sad Violin by Jessican Yeh. Her eyes illuminated in the sun's gaze as she stared aimlessly to the sky above. This room was perfect for the instruments. In order to write and play songs you needed a sense of freedom, and the large windows that encased this room had given just that.

Once she finished the song, she took the disc from the drive and stuck it in a new case, laying it atop the one Alexis had made for her. Olivia left the room and returned shortly with a paper, a pen, and a few bottles of Alexis' sleeping pills.

She opened each bottle and poured several of each in her hand only to lay them on the piano top in colourful patterns. It was a neat line and she picked up the first, blue pill. Closing her eyes she popped it in her mouth and dry swallowed it. Without opening her eyes, she reached for the red one and slipped that inside her mouth. Followed by that came the yellow, then the muilti coloured ones. She lost track of all the pills and grabbed the pen and pressed it to the paper.

Gabriel,

I was at my sister's funeral a few days back. I needed to find an answer and all I had to do was look ahead of me. I saw her in the casket. My life was crumbling beneath my feet, knowing that I suffered through too much pain in the world. I can't hide from it all.. I need to take it all in...

You see... when I looked at Alexis, I wasn't just looking at her..I was looking at my own reflection. She represented everything that I could have and more. I hope there is another world out there.. one less cruel than the one we are in today.. and I do hope we will end up in the same place in time...

I wanted to thank you for helping me through the very little life I had manged to keep.. and you can't understand how much of an impact you had on me.. But I do wish you understand I needed to do this for myself... I just can't carry on this way..

I love you now... and will still love you as we carry on.

She hoped the letter made sense.. it was hard to focus with the dizzy feeling she was sustaining from the pills.. let alone the blurred vision she had from the tears that found their way to the letter, staining it with her sorrow.

Olivia laid down on the piano's bench and hugged her stomach as she waited for sleep to overcome her...Her eyes closed gentley as she thought about him before her life passed her by.

[Gabriel Seran]

The song played in the background lulled him away to another land, perhaps another world. He stood ther at the edge of some lost clouds, the moon the world around them everything was at peace for once. It was the world he'd envisioned for himself, Gabriel had dreamed of it but this was the first instand he could ever touch it, the first time he had felt at peace. Olvia had done that for him, made him whole made everything matter if only for this short time in his life, but they could make more memories down the road because the fact was that he loved her. More than anything.

As the music closed its way off Gabriel came too feeling nothing beneath his grasp, no warmth that had been left there from the night before. Olivia had dissappeared. Was she out and about already? He smirked happily fulfilled and pulled on his jeans leaving his shirt off as he roamed the empty house now feeling darker and more empty than ever. His eyes traced each room for her but only came upon useless materials, lost to another life.

Emerald jewls found her curled against the piano in a sickly fashion a note stained by tears within her hand. Gabriel jolted swiftly to her side. His hands worked to jostle her swiftly cryng out without much avail or sense mostly hysteria.

"Olivia! OLIVIA!..." His words became sobs, "Don't leave me... please don't go I just found you... I can't let anything harm you again... I love you." He said pulling her body in towards him not giving room to release. Her tears dried by now as his lips brushed them trying to rvive her. Her heart had long since stopped beating.

"NOOO you can't leave... Please Oh God..." Gabriel cried hysterically going as far as slapping her to wake her but to no avail Olivia was gone, and Gabriel was lost.

*Minutes later*

Gabriel sat in the back of a paramedics van. His face damp with tears, is steady gaze disrupted by shear maddened sorrow. Nothing would seem to break him from this moment as his focus burnt a hole through the wrapping of the letter. Fingers tore gently at the seem as he sought to read it:


I was at my sister's funeral a few days back. I needed to find an answer and all I had to do was look ahead of me. I saw her in the casket. My life was crumbling beneath my feet, knowing that I suffered through too much pain in the world. I can't hide from it all.. I need to take it all in...

You see... when I looked at Alexis, I wasn't just looking at her..I was looking at my own reflection. She represented everything that I could have and more. I hope there is another world out there.. one less cruel than the one we are in today.. and I do hope we will end up in the same place in time...

I wanted to thank you for helping me through the very little life I had manged to keep.. and you can't understand how much of an impact you had on me.. But I do wish you understand I needed to do this for myself... I just can't carry on this way..

I love you now... and will still love you as we carry on.

Tears rolled lazily down the sides of his face as he finished the letter. Olivia sought death out because this world was cruel, because people were always the dark shade in front of the light. She wanted change just as much as Gabriel had, thats what made them so close but they still never talked about it.

'False tears bring pain to those around you. A false smile brings pain to one self'

He could no longer hurt other people or allow for this world to go on as it was. For Olivia he would see this world changed he would see this world a more peaceful place. He wiped his tears away slowly letting them endear.

"Well then."