To believe in your own lies. (Li)

[Alexis Green]

Alexis dragged her feet home. She was tired from the long horrible night. The sun was shining and everyone was taking early morning walks. Everyone went along their marry old way, Alexis was under the clouds. Her body was sore, in places she wish were never sore and she dreaded going back home.

What have I done?

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She unlocked the door, and who knew... Maybe they were both sleeping. After all it was the weekend and everyone loved to sleep in. Too bad Alexis couldn' sleep in, or she wouldn't have been in this mess!

Alexis kicked off her shoes, and pulled off her clothes from that night as she headed for the bathroom. She made a trail behind her as she entered the bathroom without locking the doors or even closing them. Without any hesitation she turned the shower on and stepped inside. Her hands grabbed the cloth to wipe herself and she started scrubbing her skin. It hurt to do so.. al the bumps and bruises, and how hard she was scrubbing. The skin on her body was turning red from all the friction of her cleansing.

What have I done? I can't tell Li...I can't...But I love him.. He should know...

Her back rested against the wall of the shower as she slid to hug her knees. Tears came from her eyes as her head tilted back, looking to the ceiling.

"Fuck!" and she started to cry. Full out sobbing and bawling. Self pitty amongst what she was about to tell Li.

[Li Nakamura]

"Fuck!" Li bolted straight up in bed as soon as he heard that exclamation, not even registering that Alexis wasn't beside him, his eyes wide with shock, as his heart raced at a mile a minute from shock. What the... That sounded like it came from the bathroom! Throwing the covers off, Li bolted from bed, wearing just a pair of blue boxer shorts, as he ran out of his bedroom and into the bathroom, the door hadn't been locked, or closed for that matter. As soon as he stepped in, he heard the sound of the shower running, which meant someone was in the bathroom. It couldn't be Olivia, she was still asleep, since her door had been closed, which left only one person. He walked across the tiled floor, before stopping in front of the shower door, and stretched his right hand out, before slowly sliding the door open.

"Alexis?" He said, sliding the door which indeed reveal Alexis, except she was on the floor of the shower, hugging her knees, her head tilted up to look at the ceiling, which would've been fine, except for one little thing. She was full-out sobbing and bawling. "Alexis!" Li exclaimed, flinging the door wide open and clambered into the shower, kneeling in front of her as he gripped her arms gently, not caring about the fact that his boxer shorts were getting wet. "What happened!? And why is your skin all red and raw?" It killed Li to see her like this, but what killed him even more, was the fact that he had absolutely no idea why she was crying in the first place, and he could do nothing to help, except pull her close and hug her tightly, which he did. "Alexis..." He said gently, he would let her cry into his chest if she needed to, as water from the shower dripped off his now soaked hair. "It's okay... I'm here... Please don't cry..." He would hug and stay with her in the shower for as long as she needed, what's a little water right? He wasn't going to melt any time soon. "Wh... what happened? What's wrong?"

[Alexis Green]

"Alexis!" Li opened the door of the shower and imediately joined her.. kneeling down beside her, whether he was dressed or not."What happened!? And why is your skin all red and raw?" He questioned while holding her in his arms. She couldn't tell him she was raped. she couldn't nor could she bring up any words to comfort Li. how was she going to comfort him. She was now further more scum. She was used to being useless. After all, Mischa had told her straight to her face after Alexis slept with her ex-boyfriend... and Her parents had no problem with saying it. Being raped was just further more degrading."Alexis..." she couldn't stop crying, and she couldn't answer him. It was eating her up inside. "It's okay... I'm here... Please don't cry...Wh... what happened? What's wrong?"

He doesn't deserve me...

She nudged him away and got up from the gound. She left him there as she stormed off to the living room, sitting on the couch, not really giving two shits about getting it wet. "I...I wa-I did something bad..." she said inbetween sobs. Alexis was going to lie. She was going to lie to him, and it was actually making her feel guilty. "Go away! I don't want to lok at you!" it broke her heart to speak like that to him. She did want to look at him, but she didn't want to while she was going to do something she was going to hate herself for the rest of her life for.

Sorry..so sorry...

[Li Nakamura]

Li felt himself nudged away as he saw Alexis stand up and walk out of the bathroom, storming off, as he looked absolutely bewildered. He twisted the shower handle, turning the water off, as he stepped out of the shower, water dripping off him and everywhere as he chased after Alexis, who sat down on the couch, it didn't matter to him if it got wet or not, he was more worried about Alexis more than anything else. "I...I wa-I did something bad..." Li stood in front of her, water running down his bare chest, as he frowned, not in anger, but in confusion at what she had managed to say in between sobs. "Go away! I don't want to look at you!" "Wh... what?" He said confusedly. "I'm not going away, not until I understand what happened to you."

His tone of voice was firm, and let's be honest, Li had a bit of a stubborn side to him. Once he has his mind set on something, he won't change his decision, and if he does, it's pretty rare that he does. "What's going on? Just what happened to you Lexis?" He wasn't going anywhere anytime soon. His girlfriend had been sobbing all-out in the shower, and he had absolutely no idea why. It broke his heart to see her in such a state, and he honestly wanted to help her. He loved her more than anyone else in this entire damn world, and it would eat away at him if he couldn't do anything to help her out. "Please tell me... Tell me what happened... Please Alexis..."

[Alexis Green]

"What's going on? Just what happened to you Lexis? Please tell me... Tell me what happened... Please Alexis..." she didn't know what pained her more. Lying, or the fact he was taking it badly/stubbornly.

"Li...I cheated on you..With another guy." she felt her body tremble, not from being wet and exposed from the air, but feeling all the anger towards herself... all that fear of losing him. Though she thought he would eventually leave her... so maybe she thought it would hurt less if she were the one leaving him. "I've been seeing him for a few weeks now... I think I like him more..I don't want y-" her voice cracked and she felt like she was going to throw up. Suddenly she started mixing reality from lies. She was making herself believe she cheated. She was now disgusted with herself. "I don't want you any more.... I-I don't love you."

In fact she did love him, but she cheated on him and she didn't deserve him. Her face looked away from his. Her eyes illuminated from the sun that was shining from the windows, along with the bright look from crying poeple usually get. Still she was trying to stop her fits of sobbing.

[Li Nakamura]

"Li...I cheated on you..With another guy." Li stiffened at this, as water continued to run down his chest. "Wh.. what?" Li managed to say, he frowned as he saw Alexis tremble, but he thought it was because she was wet and exposed to the air. "I've been seeing him for a few weeks now... I think I like him more..I don't want y-" Li felt like a sword was being thrust into his heart, as his right hand was clenched up over his heart, he was in so much pain, he didn't even notice Alexis' voice had cracked. "I don't want you any more.... I-I don't love you." Li's body began to tremble, not because he was angry, but because he was heartbroken. His long front hair covered his eyes, which was a good thing, because then Alexis couldn't see that he was close to breaking down. "I.. If that's how you feel..." Li began to say in a low voice, "Then I'm leaving." With that said, Li turned around abruptly, and walked briskly towards the stairs, before climbing up to the second floor, and into their room. He grabbed his duffel bag from his closet, and began to toss all his clothes in the bag, not caring at this point.

He then pulled on a white dress shirt and blue jeans, tossing his blue boxers in a plastic bag before stuffing it in his duffel bag, and pulled on his white Adidas shoes. He then pulled on his green hoodie, before hefting his duffel bag up, slinging his guitar case over his shoulder, and walked out the bedroom, any and all traces of him removed from the room. He then walked down the stairs, his hair still covering his eyes, as he walked to the front door and pulled it open, as he started to walk out, before stopping halfway through the entrance. "Goodbye... Alexis." He said simply, before closing the door shut behind him. "And I'll be praying that you'll be happy with this new guy..." He added, though she'd never hear that part, as he lifted his head up, revealing tears in his eyes.

He then walked away, wiping his tears away in frustration before reaching his motorcycle, and strapped his duffel bag to the seat, before pulling his helmet on, and climbing onto his bike and turning it on, drove out of the driveway. Before he turned the corner, he looked back, and thought he saw Alexis, though he dismissed this as his mind playing tricks on him, and disappeared around the corner, and out of sight, possibly forever...

[Alexis Green]

"I.. If that's how you feel... Then I'm leaving." Li turned and went into their room. Alexis still was crying, and probably wouldn’t stop for awhile. She got up, but she was afraid of collapsing because her knees were week. With shaky hands she picked up her clothes she wore last night. They had been stretched from being forcefully ripped off and bloodied from her nose. Now it was all a blur. Everything was mixing together and making her confused. She couldn’t think straight with Li in this position. She couldn’t remember what had happened that night.

"Goodbye... Alexis." He said simply. He didn’t fight for her. Maybe he didn’t want her; maybe she did herself a favour and him a favour. Though she was thinking all this she felt empty. She quickly went into the bathroom and she tugged on a towel that had been hanging on the dowel. She wanted him back. She can fight for him back. She wrapped it carelessly around her torso and ran out the door without her shoes. He was already on his motorbike, driving away. She could have sworn he looked back at her… but he didn’t come back. Alexis stood there for half an hour, tears streaming down her face. Waiting… she was waiting for him to return. But he didn’t turn back. People walked around her staring at her with eyes of judgment. They had no clue what was going on. They only saw a girl with a towel that probably wasn’t covering her body all the way, crying. Before she turned to go back in her room she murmured three little words. Words that was insignificant to him.

“…I love you...”

Alexis got in the door and went straight to the room. She opened the closet to find his side of it was empty. Alexis clenched her teeth and slammed the closet door closed. Still crying, she sat on the bed and picked a picture of the both of them up. For awhile she just stared, making the glass wet with her tears.

“You fucking whore!” she threw the picture frame at their window. Shards of glass shattered across the bedroom floor. She was numbed, but the tears kept coming.

“Lexie? Is everything all right?” Alexis’ eyes shifted to her sister. She was standing at the door, rubbing her eyes from them adjusting to the light.

“Fuck off.”

“Le-“

“Fuck off!” Olivia probably could hear the hate and despair in her voice and left. She knew to leave her alone for the time being. Knowing Livi, she will try later until she gets the answer, but right now Alexis wanted to be left alone with her thoughts. The thoughts that repeated three simple words that were probably insignificant to Li.

I love you…

(End)